Aside from
myself, there is no sign of me. The arguments are eternal and lack hope of
solution. What does it mean to be among the Living? Tossing and turning I try
to understand the mystery called love.
By the time I
realize I’m in bed, the sky was already getting light and I know I’ve never
been so comfortable with the feeling of love with anyone else but you, and yet,
still lacking part of life. What does it mean to be truly happy?
The sky is
brilliant and full of clouds, I’m reminded of how lucky I am, just by admiring
your smile and I fell honored with your care and tenderness. To have been
singled out, when two suddenly become one, following the rhythm of our hearts,
I inhale and you breathe, my synaptic connections almost don’t get this far to
understand the cognitive side of our relationship. The memory of myself becomes
more faint, unclear and distant; however, your sweet presence somehow,
transports me to a better path of truthiness and clarity. I sometimes deny the world
because it is inconsistent with my dreams and as I grow older, the innocence of
believing that good always prevails opens space for the eternal disappointment
of life as it is.
I close my eyes
and think about the way you wrinkle your nose when thinking, or your beak face
when fixing your hair in the mirror. Just got a message from you. I always
wonder how can you flip my stomach inside out? How can you make my heart beat
in such extreme rhythm? While waiting for your return a whole species of
butterfly may have become extinct.
It is said that Angels
feel a general love for the Living, though being general doesn’t make it any
less potent. They often wonder how is it to have a sense of smell, or what is
it like to dream. They can only speculate, much like the Living speculate about
the nature of God. We all can only rely on faith and our beliefs. It is also
said, that there are linguistic signs for everything, but what if they are
wrong? I tend to try finding reason an explanation for it all, but sometimes
there aren’t words for everything.
There was a time
when we weren’t aware of each other’s existence and at first glance we didn’t
really recognize that it was only together that we would have a chance of happiness,
thus one does not find it solely in romantic love, it is a great path to start
the daily battle that needs to be fought. It takes time to getting used to each
other’s habits and mannerisms, routines can only be created with patience and
acceptance of our flaws, however it’ll be worth it the effort, for you are the
only one who makes my heart shines even when the darkness strikes. My only hope
is that in the end it all comes together as if everything is part of a big
plan, I just forget sometimes that the world is not on the same schedule as I.
